Someday I know I'll look back at my life and laugh at the times when I got so stubborn with what I thought I wanted and deserved.
But learning does take time. And living involves getting a few scratches here and there, getting bruised for that one shot at happiness, no matter how shallow that joy might look like years after.
I guess I'll live each moment as if I wasn't wrong, hoping someday I'd somehow make sense of these stubborn feelings, secretly wishing on my selfish little star to at least shed a little shine on me. This is the only way to live for me.
And so I'll take the all the pain.
... for now.
ant that the truth
ReplyDeleteIf we don't suffer, we don't grow. He wouldn't give us what we can't handle. :)
ReplyDeleteHang in there. *hugs*
you're a strong woman =)
ReplyDeletesucks, right? but it's life, so we gotta dance to the music. sadly i'm never good at dancing. =(
ReplyDeleteI agree. I know that there's a time when I'll look back, smile and say to my self, "it's all worth it..."
ReplyDeleteThanks for believeing in me, Jomi. Sometimes I'm not. I just lock up the weaknesses inside til I can let them out in a burst of tears (sometimes I call it hormonal imbalance or PMS).
ReplyDeletewho says that we have to be the best dancers to breeze through life? all we have to do is to keep on keepin' on... whatever it is that life brings you, the challenge is really in the ways in which you live your life, dancing or not, you are living and that alone is already a feather in your hat gurl! hang on there sistah! yab u!
ReplyDeletehmmm...
ReplyDelete*wonders what this is about*
thanks for putting it that way. when i grow old i'll be looking back at my life and proudly say that yes, i had a life. =)
ReplyDeletestuff all of us can relate too, i guess, in different aspects nga lang. it's about taking a shot at what you think is making you happy. in my case it's hurting me as much as it's making me happy. so there. =)
ReplyDeletelife is just odd. ive bin looking back on my life so far. lots of crying, lots of bleeding, lots of scars. im sure im gona cry lots more in the future. odd thing is what u want will change. it never stays the same. so far i have seen & experinced things ive never expected. some good some bad but its bin exciting, lol, thats a understatment. but no matter how depressed i get i just think of the future. what will happen next. life has already flipped up side down & back over. since school to this point my taste in music, food & the girls im attracted too, my opinion, my wants and needs has all changed & here i am, waiting to read the next chapter in my life. when u feel sad just shrug it off and remeber. theres still many pages in the book full of surprises.
ReplyDeleteah, you say the right words. thanks for being a friend, dear. i know i'll soon be over this one and move on to the next chapter. i'm the queen of moving on. and i'm glad i have so many friends and I have God to help me make it through. =)
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