Scientia et Virtus

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My Alma Mater.



Read and weep as I did.

Talk NERDY to me.

Lead trainer: ... remember the castle story? There's this body of water surrounding a castle. What do you call that again?

Me: (absent-minded) a moat?

Lead trainer: There you go. Five happy cards just for saying moat.

Seatmate: *cough* geek *cough*

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Guest presenter: can anybody explain what DISTILLATION is?

Me: *raises hand*

Guest presenter: any science geek here?

Me: *pulls back hand*

Seatmate: *cough* nerd *cough*

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Guest presenter 2: ... Type 2 Diabetes is another condition brought about by our unhealthy lifestyle.

Teammate: *raises hand* Can you tell us what Type 2 Diabetes is?

Guest presenter 2: Uhm, anyone?

Me: *looks around*

Seatmate: Lynn, wag ka nang mahiya! Sagutin mo na.

On New Year's Eve

I slept the day through

My beloved Louis lost his father

I didn't see my dad

I learned of my younger brother's struggles

I still did not have Christmas presents for most of my loved ones

My sensitive teeth couldn't take the cold

I was coughing loudly

. . .

What a way to end the year.

Cloudwatching

Clouds fascinate me. I can spend hours just watching them move, change shape and finally disappear. I don't know why, but sometimes clouds make me want to weep from within. They're beautiful but they're temporary. Much like most precious things in our lives.

These pictures were taken October of 2007, a month before my most loved digicam was stolen. I was and am convinced that October boasts the best skies. Trust me, I've been watching the sky for a long, long time.

Lemon and my red streaks

I met up with Lemon and her Dad at Trinoma to do a last minute Christmas shopping. When I arrived at the department store, I felt weak discovering a lot of people decided to do their last minute shopping on the very last minute as well. Then from afar, I heard a high pitched voice calling out to me. It was Lemon. Amused, I asked her, "how did you find me so easily, with all the people shopping around?"

To which she sarcastically replied, "hello, mom! Your red hair?"

I was dumbfounded once more. I'm pretty sure she's only seven. Uhm... yeah.

Oh you've got to be kidding!!!

one long sigh

Once more I find my self in the middle of everything. My head says move on but my heart refuses to let go. When I joined this throng of money-making night dwellers, I told my self, I should not get attached emotionally. It's fast-paced and you lose and win friends by the dozen.

Now look at me. I'm still here. I decided to leave the company almost nine months ago. How many times after that did I consider leaving and not looking back? Friends, laughter, crushes, the adrenaline rush, side-projects - all of them are reasons why I stick by.

Needless to say, I am where I feel I am most loved and appreciated. And that is reason good enough for me to stay. It's so difficult to find a place where one can thrive, and I am most glad I did. So there, I let my self get attached, I loved, I grew emotionally dependent on individuals I barely know. Perfect recipe for a disastrous career, ain't it? But hey, that's what's making me happy right now. That's what's making me stay.

So here I am at another crossroad in my career in the customer service world. It's not easy being here and I wish I am somewhere else. I wish it didn't get so complicated. I wish I don't have to decide. I'm floating for a few more days, I guess, waiting for signs, watching for signals. For now I'll just nurse my broken heart and try to detach it from my processing brain. It's not so wise to decide when you're hurt. I might regret it. It's like all the pieces seem to fit but there's still something wrong with the big picture.

Coffee, anyone?