Well I guess because it's in my blood

I guess it's the SaGuijo gig that made me reach into my not-so-distant past. Well actually I've always been the type who finds her self in other people's eyes. What I'm actually talking about here is being in a (rock) band, you know - performing in front of people, making noises and just losing all sensibility. You see, I had my taste of the rock and roll lifestyle. Though not for a long period of time, I've also experienced being up there, hoping that the crowd would not throw tomatoes on us. Unfortunately, or not, I had to give up living in limelight (as some would call it). My fantasy of becoming a "rockstar" graduated with me in college.

My dad was once a band member. His brotheres were once band members. Now they have their own families, making ends meet, choosing to live the less glamorous, but fairly predictable life. I guess I'm walking the very same path.

Am I having regrets? Maybe. But I believe that there's a reason why I'm here and not up there. Maybe from where I'm standing I can enjoy the best of both worlds, get a better view on things. Maybe I am really to enjoy other people's music.

I mean, I could've been the greatest, but then again I could've sucked big time. For now I'll be content here, humming with the music the world has offered me, whistling my way accross the universe.